do i like this song for a reason? who is it about...i literally do not know! hate my lifeee

back on track?

I deffo feel like i am getting my life back on track...well it's on it's way anywayzzz (:

Been for a run yesterday and today (despite the weather) and that is a good start to uni life. Brought some healthy-ish meals...well they aren't burgers and shit, so it's a start-and i managed to shop, with some help from debs. my uni room is all set up now which is cool and the housemates seem fairly nice, although i dont know them that well yet.

Just about to go to my first lesson at uni which is american science fiction. cant say i am to happy about this module, but i've looked at the guide and i can get into it i think. done some background reading and what not so that's all good.

laterzzzzzzzz (:

p.s postman just came and i got 3/5 books that i have to read this term! In for a nice evening (: and wednesday we are gonna hit up the edge with jodss and her lgbt club innit, gonna try get some free drinks by looking fairly gayyy in my blue shirt buttoned up to the top and maa red jeans (:

muddled up.

literally just read back through my new years aims and realised i havent started any. literally haven't done anything new this week, im not going for runs and im not doing sit-ups or learning Spanish. But tomorrow i move to winchester for university and all this will start on thr 15th of January. So what if im two weeks late? University and summer is my motivation and i will get the body and the lifestyle i want.

ohhh and btw, Elliot blew me off today for 'friends' so I'm seeing Chris....how fucked up is my life?!

hatehatehatehatehate myself for it.

but cannot stop myself.

KIGH

Currently in love with this song. Pretty much sums up my life right about now.

New Activity Number One

So, as I stated last week this year I wanted to do something new every week, to get a new experience and a new outlook on life. My first new thing of the year is really a step towards growing up in life, and I know when I say what I have done y'all gonna be like 'is that it?' but to me, it is a step towards becoming an independent person, doing things for myself without having to ask for help from anyone. I put a desk together, screws and all, all by myself. My mum told me to wait until Mark had got home, but I thought NO. Why should I have to wait until a man gets home to do it? Follow the instructions and I should be perfectly capable, and guess what...I am! And this gives me hope for my life, that I don't and won't need a man around the house until I am ready to have on in my life. I have achieved something this week, and I am proud of myself. Picture to come: Will be edited in as soon as I have found my camera to take a picture (:

WRESTLE WITH THE QUESTIONS IN YOUR HEAD.

It's January the 3rd, and so far my 'resolutions' or aims for 2012 have taken a turn for the worse--well some of them anyway.

My heart is in more of a mess than ever. Yesterday I hung out with Chris, and it was really nice. He texts me in the morning, and he asks about my day. When you compare the two, Chris is by far the more thoughtful and caring. Elliot know he has 'neglected me' as he put it, but hasn't done anything to change this.

jsbabfbafabjkb

Currently hate my predicament. Why do I need to be needed? Why can't I just say FUCK OFF to both of them and enjoy the single life for a while? I mean im hopefully going to America in a few months again, then I plan to travel after university, is there any point being in a relationship? But when you find happiness somewhere, you just gotta grab it with both hands, regardless of the future...

Today I am going to sort this out.

I did 83 situps this morning.

I bought sheets for my room.

The new thing I am doing this week is going shopping to Westfields with Hannah and Ray tomozaa, will blog after (:

mannnnnnn i just want an easy fuckin' life.

but as kigh say 'the best is yet to come'

2012

I'm not usually one for making resolutions for the new year, usually I think that if you want to change, the just go ahead and do it. Why should you wait for the start of the year to do this? Every day is a new beginning and a chance to change yourself and the world, so go ahead and do it.

However, this year I have decided not to create resolutions as such, but a list of things I want to do in 2012 and then next year, I can look back at this post and see how much I achieved--and see whether the year panned out how I wanted it to.

Things to do in 2012

• Spend my 21st birthday in Las Vegas.
• Spend my summer doing something productive (camp america.)
• Move up in the place of work, try and become supervisor--robert dyas or elsewhere.
• Do one new thing every week and blog about it.
• Go for a run three or four times a week and become physically fit (and under 9 stone.)
• Do 100 sit ups a night and get a toned stomach.
• Say yes to everything; work and essay's are not an excuse, just do them later on.
• Sort my heart out and stop lying to myself.
• Make progress towards my WWF internship.
• Learn Spanish.
• See the Olympic torch go through Basingstoke.
• Have fun in life--smile and think of how lucky you are every day. Do not lose myself to the world, when I forget who I am and where I want to be in life, go to tumblr.

"Do the thing you love more than anything in life, you might become unpredictable, sometimes cranky, but you will be happier than you ever imagined possible"

I think that will be the 2012 motto; and I think this will be a good year.