I feel like i am not my own person anymore; and i need to be. Being at SOU has made me realise i spent way to much time attached to the ex boyfriend last year, and i dont know why because i knew it wasnt what i wanted. I have no friends at winchester because of that, instead i just have acquaintances. It would be nice if i stayed friends with pete, jodie and debs, but in reality, they have friends at university which i don't. But at least i have got to experience some sort of social life here which has been nice. I know i am in effect a temporaary friend for them, but i will take that. I guess im just longing for that sense of university friends and home friends which all my 'home' friends talk about. I want to stay friends with everyone, but as home time draws nearer reality is starting to kick in.